Immensely irritated :x

I always knew Pune was the Best thing that could have happened to me in a lifetime..i cannot explain that immense awesome time that i had there . .. But like every good thing has to come to a weird end , the expected six month slot was cut short or say scratched short to four months .


Secondly when I came down to Nagpur hoping that I'd be happy going back home , eating mom-made food and not really worrying about my bank balance , to my utter disgrace I'm not liking it here ....The nympholepsy of not having unobstructed freedom , this yucky gluey weather is overshadowing my MENAGE ..


I find people irritating if they talk too much , I find every pair of sandals here rinky-dink , I find no place good enough for me to hang-out with my friends ....And above all i cannot stand the innumerous stupid oglers .....


I've always been indecisive , infact I've been known for it ..but this one decision that i kindda inferred seems so super correct n crystal clear ... I see my future outside Nagpur . I nowhere mean Nagpur does not have career opportunities , but its something i cannot explain ....




Another thing is that I've become so so phlegm , AALSI and laid back . I barely study and what frustrates me is that everybody around me is getting into some really bomb B-Schools .....I have to start working hard or for that matter start toiling day in and out ... but I procrastinate so bad and have become succha wonderful idler that I can convince my procrastination so well that one may get the wrong idea ....


And most of all im pissed off at my NEW STYLE OF LEISURE LIVING.....I fall sick if stay up , I pant and sweat of work , and I've started thinking that no matter how proportionate I am , I have to improvise on my presentation , I've become so blunt that i might end-up screwing you so bad , so bad that one may wanna kill me instantly ...not to mention how mean I am at shopping arcades if somebody cannot match my pace ....


And right now I'm hell pissed with my classes because they've been making utter circumlocutions for one silly transfer letter , and the Nagpur centre wont let me attend classes until I acquire it....And trust me all this while when I was writing I had to pry myself from not jotting down imprecate assertions which has again been derived lately......How disgusting !! Seriously , if i do not get into one decent B-School I'd so be frustrated n compelled to scratch my veins out..... WHATEVER...its a crappy mean World (n I dont give a damn if you disagree)..




p.s.:Kindly appreciate Clean language :).. n if you cant... You know the right set of words for the event [:P]..n like always quoted " NO OFFENSE MEANT TO ANYBODY ANYWHERE "

PUNE

(please bear wid the shortforms wid words ) :P

30th MARCH/ 2009...it begins here !!!
PUNE dint seem very pretty to me today, there were two major reasons :
1) mom wasnt around
2) this was not a visit , but a 6 month stay



wont really write down what all i did thereafter...just wanna describe the city from my point of view ....
for me pune after a week remains catching the "PUNE STATION BUS " from Ruby hall clinic , pop down at SASOON , catch another bus from ST.ANNIE BESANT MARG for SALUNKE VIHAR n then get onto the 7th FLOOR of the office apartment....



i see a lot of people , they are going somewhere ... office probably , they dont care what you are wearing ( if i wear a frock like i did in pune in nagpur , they'd spalsh it in d newspaper ) , these people dont mind crushing ur finger while moving in d bus

.... they r very busy it seems...i see big malls , crowded shops - everything is jazzy n all set to attract customers ... i see buses carelessly passing the roads , so many of them at a time .. i see auto-rickshaws , oogling out at passers by ...wanting to get occupied.....i see walkers passing by , they have wrapped their faces..they dont want me to look at them ..then at the very corner of my eye i saw the glass of the bus window...I SAW ME..........

i felt lost in all those pom poms ..... i suddenly realised what a new city it is...in that small mirror image i felt lonely in the crowd....n the next moment in the manifestation mixed with the to n fro of the bus , i saw the people behind my reflection , n i felt 1 amongst them...

i love dining in pizza hut n dominos now ( thats so new ) ... i've walked into the PUNERI FASHION , of not really looking for matching earings n ol...i dress up the way i want , wear cute lil frocks n love eating ice-cream at the amul shop near ganesh mandir..........i look out of the bus window now , i see shops n i see stuff i wanna pick , i open my hair , straighten them n put a lil bead , i dont think combing matters now :P.........

i talk in english to the dudhwala bhaiya n the auto uncles......i pick skirts over kurtas now ...hehe..thats new again..........

i like to look at the florists stuff....bright fragrant flowers , i like walking the streets alone noticing people around , laughing wid myself , sleeping by myself ( without anjali besides , like in nagpur ).....i wash my clothes , put them to dry ... i decide if i am to go out or not , im to buy this or not....

n then again i look outta d window , n remember the "GARREB RATH " window , n i see mom n aj waving at me wid tears , n i cry.........cry for the estrangement ...

its a mixed feeling...IM LIVING BY MYSELF in this UNKNOWN CITY......n people thats so cool ! :)

my TEDDY

If I told you, "I think you're cute "
Would you love me and never let go ?
Would you sew my button back on ?
Please sit down and tell me so...

If I told you that I love you
Would you hold me so tight ?
That stuffing would come out of me 
And fluff me up at night ?...

If I told you nothing at all
Would you still gaze upon my face
Throughout darkness and over time 
In a lover's warm embrace?...

If I told you, "I'll go a great distance"
Would you follow me without a care
Or, should I stay right beside you 
And be your sweet lil teddy ?...

I sat down with pen and paper,
A poem to compose....
What shall I write about ?
My Teddy I suppose...

My Teddy is so so cute ,
There since god sent him ,
When no one else got me,
My Teddy understood...

What is my Teddy thinking,
Sitting on my bed.
And then all of a sudden,
"I Love You," my Teddy said...

My teddy is the loveliest being I know,
He's with me at home and even on the go,
He's with me when I'm high and when I'm down so low,
He's with me when I've hurt my finger and when I've stubbed a toe...

I take him to dinner, I take him to a show,
I take him on a run, I take him in my boat to row,
I take him to trim the trees, I take him to the grass to mow,
I love my teddy bear, the loveliest being I know...

The slumber of sleep does not come soon,

Restlessly, I sigh in despair,

Tiptoeing, in silhouette, across my dormitory room,

Untill i was presented with a Teddy...

Weaken by my toil toward restful desires,

I graciously accept my new guest,

No instructions are required,

I hold my Teddy to my chest.

A blanket of softness on my face,

A layer of warmth on my chest,

My bear nestled properly in place,

I roll to the position of rest...

I anguish no longer in envy of those,

On whom wedded bliss has been bestowed,

For when the yearning for sleep does arise,

The comfort of teddy will close my eyes...