Mumbai , Pune and bankruptcy ~ PART 1 (2010)

Some retentions from all the myriad jaunts to Bombay (Mumbai) and Pune and the places around'em in the year 2010 ! (only if i had a better IC , I could put up so much more , DUH :| ....)

Cave -2 ~ Elephanta Caves *mammoth*



The elephants caves : Awesome place during the rains *drools*





Gateway of India ~ stunning









Juhu Beach ~ Loved the downpour and the sound of water :)

 



 The humungousTaj : marvel





Iskcon Juhu ~ one word - CUTE




Miss sixty ~ yum

 

HRC Pune (extended KP )




Black russian ~ my love

 


All the lovely lil pick-ups from both the cities ( major bankruptcy issue :B)




On the way to Bombay from Pune




At singhagad - the mighty arch !




Curves on the way to Singhgad Fort ~ Pune




HRC Pune - oomph all the way :)





Peach Schnapps ~ Pretty

 

Immensely irritated :x

I always knew Pune was the Best thing that could have happened to me in a lifetime..i cannot explain that immense awesome time that i had there . .. But like every good thing has to come to a weird end , the expected six month slot was cut short or say scratched short to four months .


Secondly when I came down to Nagpur hoping that I'd be happy going back home , eating mom-made food and not really worrying about my bank balance , to my utter disgrace I'm not liking it here ....The nympholepsy of not having unobstructed freedom , this yucky gluey weather is overshadowing my MENAGE ..


I find people irritating if they talk too much , I find every pair of sandals here rinky-dink , I find no place good enough for me to hang-out with my friends ....And above all i cannot stand the innumerous stupid oglers .....


I've always been indecisive , infact I've been known for it ..but this one decision that i kindda inferred seems so super correct n crystal clear ... I see my future outside Nagpur . I nowhere mean Nagpur does not have career opportunities , but its something i cannot explain ....




Another thing is that I've become so so phlegm , AALSI and laid back . I barely study and what frustrates me is that everybody around me is getting into some really bomb B-Schools .....I have to start working hard or for that matter start toiling day in and out ... but I procrastinate so bad and have become succha wonderful idler that I can convince my procrastination so well that one may get the wrong idea ....


And most of all im pissed off at my NEW STYLE OF LEISURE LIVING.....I fall sick if stay up , I pant and sweat of work , and I've started thinking that no matter how proportionate I am , I have to improvise on my presentation , I've become so blunt that i might end-up screwing you so bad , so bad that one may wanna kill me instantly ...not to mention how mean I am at shopping arcades if somebody cannot match my pace ....


And right now I'm hell pissed with my classes because they've been making utter circumlocutions for one silly transfer letter , and the Nagpur centre wont let me attend classes until I acquire it....And trust me all this while when I was writing I had to pry myself from not jotting down imprecate assertions which has again been derived lately......How disgusting !! Seriously , if i do not get into one decent B-School I'd so be frustrated n compelled to scratch my veins out..... WHATEVER...its a crappy mean World (n I dont give a damn if you disagree)..




p.s.:Kindly appreciate Clean language :).. n if you cant... You know the right set of words for the event [:P]..n like always quoted " NO OFFENSE MEANT TO ANYBODY ANYWHERE "

PUNE

(please bear wid the shortforms wid words ) :P

30th MARCH/ 2009...it begins here !!!
PUNE dint seem very pretty to me today, there were two major reasons :
1) mom wasnt around
2) this was not a visit , but a 6 month stay



wont really write down what all i did thereafter...just wanna describe the city from my point of view ....
for me pune after a week remains catching the "PUNE STATION BUS " from Ruby hall clinic , pop down at SASOON , catch another bus from ST.ANNIE BESANT MARG for SALUNKE VIHAR n then get onto the 7th FLOOR of the office apartment....



i see a lot of people , they are going somewhere ... office probably , they dont care what you are wearing ( if i wear a frock like i did in pune in nagpur , they'd spalsh it in d newspaper ) , these people dont mind crushing ur finger while moving in d bus

.... they r very busy it seems...i see big malls , crowded shops - everything is jazzy n all set to attract customers ... i see buses carelessly passing the roads , so many of them at a time .. i see auto-rickshaws , oogling out at passers by ...wanting to get occupied.....i see walkers passing by , they have wrapped their faces..they dont want me to look at them ..then at the very corner of my eye i saw the glass of the bus window...I SAW ME..........

i felt lost in all those pom poms ..... i suddenly realised what a new city it is...in that small mirror image i felt lonely in the crowd....n the next moment in the manifestation mixed with the to n fro of the bus , i saw the people behind my reflection , n i felt 1 amongst them...

i love dining in pizza hut n dominos now ( thats so new ) ... i've walked into the PUNERI FASHION , of not really looking for matching earings n ol...i dress up the way i want , wear cute lil frocks n love eating ice-cream at the amul shop near ganesh mandir..........i look out of the bus window now , i see shops n i see stuff i wanna pick , i open my hair , straighten them n put a lil bead , i dont think combing matters now :P.........

i talk in english to the dudhwala bhaiya n the auto uncles......i pick skirts over kurtas now ...hehe..thats new again..........

i like to look at the florists stuff....bright fragrant flowers , i like walking the streets alone noticing people around , laughing wid myself , sleeping by myself ( without anjali besides , like in nagpur ).....i wash my clothes , put them to dry ... i decide if i am to go out or not , im to buy this or not....

n then again i look outta d window , n remember the "GARREB RATH " window , n i see mom n aj waving at me wid tears , n i cry.........cry for the estrangement ...

its a mixed feeling...IM LIVING BY MYSELF in this UNKNOWN CITY......n people thats so cool ! :)

my TEDDY

If I told you, "I think you're cute "
Would you love me and never let go ?
Would you sew my button back on ?
Please sit down and tell me so...

If I told you that I love you
Would you hold me so tight ?
That stuffing would come out of me 
And fluff me up at night ?...

If I told you nothing at all
Would you still gaze upon my face
Throughout darkness and over time 
In a lover's warm embrace?...

If I told you, "I'll go a great distance"
Would you follow me without a care
Or, should I stay right beside you 
And be your sweet lil teddy ?...

I sat down with pen and paper,
A poem to compose....
What shall I write about ?
My Teddy I suppose...

My Teddy is so so cute ,
There since god sent him ,
When no one else got me,
My Teddy understood...

What is my Teddy thinking,
Sitting on my bed.
And then all of a sudden,
"I Love You," my Teddy said...

My teddy is the loveliest being I know,
He's with me at home and even on the go,
He's with me when I'm high and when I'm down so low,
He's with me when I've hurt my finger and when I've stubbed a toe...

I take him to dinner, I take him to a show,
I take him on a run, I take him in my boat to row,
I take him to trim the trees, I take him to the grass to mow,
I love my teddy bear, the loveliest being I know...

The slumber of sleep does not come soon,

Restlessly, I sigh in despair,

Tiptoeing, in silhouette, across my dormitory room,

Untill i was presented with a Teddy...

Weaken by my toil toward restful desires,

I graciously accept my new guest,

No instructions are required,

I hold my Teddy to my chest.

A blanket of softness on my face,

A layer of warmth on my chest,

My bear nestled properly in place,

I roll to the position of rest...

I anguish no longer in envy of those,

On whom wedded bliss has been bestowed,

For when the yearning for sleep does arise,

The comfort of teddy will close my eyes...

bulwarking sanity !

they say , " maintain your composure...! " , everytime i am into some serious logical reasoning ... how far do i stretch to bulwark my sanity ?
this is like certain consuetudinary to behave sophisticated when you are said to have "GROWN UP"...this itself is a tentative term...like what i had been writing in the post earlier !

why am i always expected to forgive ? why am i not supposed to put forth my perspectives n conceptions when im being called "GROWN UP " ?

why am i stupid enough to think that " SAYING SORRY " , even if i 'm "RIGHT" is innocuous ? as far as i've debunked my own SANITY...i feel im a person who does not like EGO to spoil things even for a while....i firmly believe n treasure every relationship i share with people around me.....but being taken for granted as an "EMOTIONAL" coleen i sometimes feel it is so good to be INSANE......i fight with my SANITY when i do not speak out things i should n want to..............when i want to be angry ( like mom asks me to drink child water ) ........ i dont want to have regrets over things that matter a lot to my statuesque !

i think sometimes it is sheer better to speak out things , without looking back at what would happen next...cuz if you dont ... the other person with splash out such shit that would question your sane "SANITY"..........is being upfront on the levels of bulwarking your amour-propre INSANITY ?

my point isn't about being upfront n gruff to people you dont like...but yes i certainly think living by the rules of "ITS OVER",....is SANE ! sometimes i feel it is very important to get back to knee jerks n regurgitate your feelings n anger ! one needs to be very very strong to say "YES , IM HURT ! ".........for the past 20 years what i have been reading , hearing , watching n learning every instant....i can confer that ," As difficult as it seems, you can be sure of this: At the core of the heart, you have the power to move beyond the old issues that are still hindering your freedom. The hardest things—the ones that push you up against your limits—are the very things you need to address to make a quantum leap into a fresh inner and outer life. "

like i've known myself over the years i always hunt an issue n solve it ,yself...n therefore i can manage to say that in the long run, it's not a question of whether they deserve to be forgiven. You're not forgiving them for their sake. You're doing it for yourself. For your own health and well-being, forgiveness is simply the most energy-efficient option. It frees you from the incredibly toxic, debilitating drain of holding a grudge. Don't let these people live rent free in your head. If they hurt you before, why let them keep doing it year after year in your mind? It's not worth it but it takes heart effort to stop it. You can muster that heart power to forgive them as a way of looking out for yourself. It's one thing you can be totally selfish about !

The incoherence that results from holding on to resentments and unforgiving attitudes keeps you from being aligned with your true self. It can block you from your next level of quality life experience. Metaphorically, it's the curtain standing between the room you're living in now and a new room, much larger and full of beautiful objects. The act of forgiveness removes the curtain. Clearing up your old accounts can free up so much energy that you jump right into a whole new house. Forgiving releases you from the punishment of a self-made prison where you are both the inmate and the jailer. !


though many times my head spanks me that "FORGIVING"..isnt the best option....but i cannot deny the person i am..the SANITY i owe to my being .... n so to protect me from being a make-believe i have accepted the easy way out....!




Revenge is a kind of wild justice; which the more man's nature runs to, the more ought law to weed it out ! i know what destruction i face if i try to bulwark my ego against my sanity....VENGEANCE has never done me good....Something of revenge I had tasted for the first time; as aromatic wine it seemed, on swallowing, warm and racy: its after-flavor, metallic and corroding, gave me a sensation as if I had been poisoned of INSANITY. !!!

UNIFEST competitions 2008

this was on 8th oct.08...just a few glimses of the poster making competition i had participated in !

THE " right" n the "RIGHT"

 "RIGHTS " as given :


(1) Right : Of , pertaining to , or located on or near the side of a person or thing that is turned toward the east when the subject is facing north..
(2) Right : adherence or obedience to moral and legal principles and authority..
(3) Right : correct in judgment, opinion, or action..




I really am missing two more "RIGHTS" ; but then I am not scribbling to discuss the word vagary here .. Amongst these 3 rights , the only one i understand & am sure about is the First Right (1)...As regarding concerns about the other two you can just have a look at the adjoining snap..Cuz thats exactly how I'd probably look when I have to apprehend the other two , but dont take me literally .. HEHe...I aint as pretty as Betty , who was the beauty from Alabama ... Khair , whenever it comes to the 2nd Right ; what I understand till date aint as bad but then it needs drastic improvements ...




What I feel is " RIGHT" at some point of the day seems incredibly "WRONG" by the end of the day....I am confused about judging over people & their behavior at certain points in my life .. I miserably fail to understand what is "RIGHT" when i come across a "MIND QUARREL"..& what should be done next ... What is "RIGHT" if im "RIGHT "..& what is "RIGHT" if im "WRONG"....Mamma says im just a little to naive to understand the complex mindsets & tact-tics of this Terrene....But the mindsets & tact-tics I'm pointing towards here are thrown by my age-mates ! So am I to conclude that I alone am the dunce of the class ? Papa told me I still remain untouched by the dirt that he watches closely..but then all these answers fail to convince me about my perspectives about deciding "WHAT IS RIGHT "....Its not that I absolutely have my squares round to make the "RIGHT" decision..but then yes I still feel i need to work upon my trust levels & start accepting that this Cosmos isn't as good as I see it to be ... Am I " RIGHT" ??!!???...Damn...Now you see what Holy crap im struck in !






Now the 3rd "RIGHT" (3)........Lord be humble to me , please....this one is like utter razzle-dazzle..When it comes to "RIGHTS' I must be given , they say im a "CHILD".. n when it comes to "RIGHTS" I must follow as been told & imparted by the society which aren't in my favor ; n hence i refuse to abide by ; they say I'm a "GROWN UP"..My parents say "RIGHTS" is more of a cumulative term....n that I have no " RIGHT" ; to question my own "RIGHTS"...where on Earth is someone now who'd agree to this.....I must n must have the "RIGHT" to conclude what are my "RIGHTS" & that what I think may be "RIGHT" from my point of view....Never-the-less..I so well know I won't even be heard.....but ALL i wanted to say is am i not " RIGHT"..when i say i have the following "RIGHTS" ?
to choose , to decide , to judge , to conclude , to be heard , to speak , to listen , to see & most importantly have & form OPINIONS about everything thats happens around me....?


& about the "RIGHT RIGHTS" for people who form my harbor .. they have the right to interact & poke their respective noses in my life but I own the "RIGHT" to decide upto what extents....n i think it is "RIGHT " on my part if I think that some people leave too much of mess & destruction to come back to my envelope ever again... & that i have the "RIGHT" to say that such people cause nothing but trouble , n that I have the "RIGHT" to never talk to them again ( they still poke their nose though ).......& that i also have the "RIGHT" to live by the rules of "ITS OVER"...cuz it makes the "RIGHT" sense............n thats i have no "RIGHT" to say what I say is "RIGHT" may hold "RIGHT" for others.........


Okay .. I think I'm going bonkers now.....was everything that I'd been writing "RIGHT" ????